![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
(no subject)
Jun. 25th, 2014 03:19 amSaid goodbye to Annie tonight. Her party was crazy, with guys hanging onto her trying to get one last farewell kiss or sexual romp. In the end, her faithful friends remained to see her home safe for the night so that she would be ok for her flight tomorrow.
We got to her door and everyone was ready to go upstairs to drink some more, but I knew I had to go home. Before we all went in, I went up to her and said "I have to go now. "
There was a slight pause as we both prepared to say goodbye. She hugged me, but it wasn't an ordinary hug. She really held me tight and I hugged her back. "I'm sorry I'm not that girl for you. I know you'll find her one day." I suddenly became self conscious of the rest of the people around me, but I held my ground. I whispered back, "Don't worry about that. You're perfect just the way you are." We broke the hug, looked at each other, and hugged again. "Thank you for everything you've done for me." "Thank you too. " "Lets be friends again, somewhere new, ok?" "Yeah, we're friends for life."
With that she pushed me away half-jokingly, half-seriously. "I don't want to cry, so go now." I could see she really was about to cry so I said lightheartedly. "Alright alright I'll go. We'll see each other again ok?" I really didn't want her to cry so I wanted to keep it short. We had already said our goodbyes a week ago on the privacy of her rooftop. There was nothing left to be said now. I backed up and started to leave and she called out to me "I love you. " I could sense the sadness in her voice, so I fought back my own tears and stuttered back those simple words, "I love you too." I waved to everyone and said bye, as I wanted to leave cool and gracefully, but deep inside I felt like I was dying.
i walked a bit further down the street and I looked back to see that she and her friends had already gone upstairs into her apartment. I wondered when I would be able to see her again.
A part of my life disappeared there tonight, into the warm summer air.
And there I let myself cry.
We got to her door and everyone was ready to go upstairs to drink some more, but I knew I had to go home. Before we all went in, I went up to her and said "I have to go now. "
There was a slight pause as we both prepared to say goodbye. She hugged me, but it wasn't an ordinary hug. She really held me tight and I hugged her back. "I'm sorry I'm not that girl for you. I know you'll find her one day." I suddenly became self conscious of the rest of the people around me, but I held my ground. I whispered back, "Don't worry about that. You're perfect just the way you are." We broke the hug, looked at each other, and hugged again. "Thank you for everything you've done for me." "Thank you too. " "Lets be friends again, somewhere new, ok?" "Yeah, we're friends for life."
With that she pushed me away half-jokingly, half-seriously. "I don't want to cry, so go now." I could see she really was about to cry so I said lightheartedly. "Alright alright I'll go. We'll see each other again ok?" I really didn't want her to cry so I wanted to keep it short. We had already said our goodbyes a week ago on the privacy of her rooftop. There was nothing left to be said now. I backed up and started to leave and she called out to me "I love you. " I could sense the sadness in her voice, so I fought back my own tears and stuttered back those simple words, "I love you too." I waved to everyone and said bye, as I wanted to leave cool and gracefully, but deep inside I felt like I was dying.
i walked a bit further down the street and I looked back to see that she and her friends had already gone upstairs into her apartment. I wondered when I would be able to see her again.
A part of my life disappeared there tonight, into the warm summer air.
And there I let myself cry.
