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The End of a Quarter... -almost-
Mar. 12th, 2009 11:33 pmMy last day of speech class...
I gave my last speech to honor my grandfather. After the end of class, a girl came up to me and told me she almost cried when she was listening to me. I smiled and said... "I almost cried too..."
Today was also my last final for my psychology seminar. I wrote three essays and I think I did fairly well on them. I'll have to find out next week to see how I did.
It feels a little weird to be done with almost all my classes. This quarter was just so hectic... and now I suddenly have all this free time. It seems so strange. I don't really know what I should do for the next two weeks. You know, even if I did well in my classes... it doesn't really feel like much. Getting an A doesn't make me happy like it used to. I actually still have one more final to take, but it takes place next friday. I basically have a week to study for it... and I already have a good handle on the material, so it's going to be easy. So I'm -almost- done with this quarter... just one more test.
"This is like a new beginning for you, isn't it?"
I nod. Yes, it is like a new beginning. I'm standing here alone, at the edge.. waiting to see where my life will go next. And I'm scared. I need to say farewell to my life now before I start my next step. I think I'll spend some time next week taking some photographs of my favorite places on campus. I'll keep them in my memories.
Also first thing next quarter, I'm visiting the career center to see what jobs I can apply for. I already have a few places in my mind, but I'd like to see what other options are available to me.
Those are my plans. Not quite so hectic, are they?
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I think the reason why I can get so lonely is that I don't try to make new friends. I can see that I can be a popular guy sometimes.... Heck, everyone in class seems to know me, but I don't really take the time to get to know them.
I need to remember one thing....
1) Don't judge people on the basis of past relationships.
It's sort of hard for me to do this I suppose. x_x It's easier for me to think that I'm better off alone than thinking I need people. When I'm alone, I don't need to worry about others. I can go at my own pace and live my own life.
It's still one thing I struggle with. Although I'm functioning really well right now.. I'm still fighting those old battles of mine.
I gave my last speech to honor my grandfather. After the end of class, a girl came up to me and told me she almost cried when she was listening to me. I smiled and said... "I almost cried too..."
Today was also my last final for my psychology seminar. I wrote three essays and I think I did fairly well on them. I'll have to find out next week to see how I did.
It feels a little weird to be done with almost all my classes. This quarter was just so hectic... and now I suddenly have all this free time. It seems so strange. I don't really know what I should do for the next two weeks. You know, even if I did well in my classes... it doesn't really feel like much. Getting an A doesn't make me happy like it used to. I actually still have one more final to take, but it takes place next friday. I basically have a week to study for it... and I already have a good handle on the material, so it's going to be easy. So I'm -almost- done with this quarter... just one more test.
"This is like a new beginning for you, isn't it?"
I nod. Yes, it is like a new beginning. I'm standing here alone, at the edge.. waiting to see where my life will go next. And I'm scared. I need to say farewell to my life now before I start my next step. I think I'll spend some time next week taking some photographs of my favorite places on campus. I'll keep them in my memories.
Also first thing next quarter, I'm visiting the career center to see what jobs I can apply for. I already have a few places in my mind, but I'd like to see what other options are available to me.
Those are my plans. Not quite so hectic, are they?
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I think the reason why I can get so lonely is that I don't try to make new friends. I can see that I can be a popular guy sometimes.... Heck, everyone in class seems to know me, but I don't really take the time to get to know them.
I need to remember one thing....
1) Don't judge people on the basis of past relationships.
It's sort of hard for me to do this I suppose. x_x It's easier for me to think that I'm better off alone than thinking I need people. When I'm alone, I don't need to worry about others. I can go at my own pace and live my own life.
It's still one thing I struggle with. Although I'm functioning really well right now.. I'm still fighting those old battles of mine.
