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Apr. 24th, 2017 05:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
second_flightMy days feel.. unsatisfying?
I wonder what it is that I need.
A more constant contact with friends.. perhaps. I need a reason to look forward to the end of the work day. Right now, I practically live for work. I NEED something more, but friendships in New York are too hard to make and keep. I'm usually too tired after work to make an effort to go out, which hinders things. To top it off, my aunt is very jealous of my time. Every once in awhile I go out with friends and coworkers, but the day to day grind feels draining. I relish that time I can actually go out and connect.
I need more of a connection. A lifelink to the world outside my world. Another point of view.
I'm still a little scared to put myself out there. Not because I'm scared of rejection... but because I'm scared that I'll be caught up again in something or someone. Funny thing is that's probably exactly what I need.
I wonder what it is that I need.
A more constant contact with friends.. perhaps. I need a reason to look forward to the end of the work day. Right now, I practically live for work. I NEED something more, but friendships in New York are too hard to make and keep. I'm usually too tired after work to make an effort to go out, which hinders things. To top it off, my aunt is very jealous of my time. Every once in awhile I go out with friends and coworkers, but the day to day grind feels draining. I relish that time I can actually go out and connect.
I need more of a connection. A lifelink to the world outside my world. Another point of view.
I'm still a little scared to put myself out there. Not because I'm scared of rejection... but because I'm scared that I'll be caught up again in something or someone. Funny thing is that's probably exactly what I need.
