Quick Update

Mornings, I usually feel more quiet, attentive, and alert. However, if given a chance... I would just love to jump back into bed and fall asleep again.

It's only Wednesday, but it feels like a whole week has gone by. I'm really tired.

My infatuation has finally left me, and I can think straight again. It's bit easier to be logical and organized than emotional for me. When I'm emotional, I have a tendency to do things I might regret later on. When I'm more logical, I can see things with a bit more clarity. It's weird having these two natures of logic and emotion. They've always seemed like two seperate parts of myself.... like I'm two different people.

Alright, I have one goal left, and that's to GET THROUGH FINALS.  Oh yeah... and also a 10 page paper that I haven't started on... *grumbles*

Today

Today was an interesting day... For a start, I had a dream about my grandfather... or rather, where he used to live. There was a blackout, so everything was dark and completely black. My grandmother was in the living room, and I asked her why she was standing there all alone. She then told me something, and pointed towards where my grandfather used to be when he was bedridden. Suddenly, lightning flashed, it started to rain... and I could hear the sound of deep thunder.  Incidentally, that woke me up... and I realized that the thunder I heard was actually real (it was stormy outside).  It must've lasted at least 30 seconds... and I could feel the rumbling on my bed.  What a way to be woken up. It was a strange experience... and I felt a bit scared and alone after that. It was hard trying to get back to sleep...

In school today, a lot of flattering things happened. Basically, the teachers in my classes praised me for my work and consistency over the quarter.  The girls around me were all gleaming.. "Wow, you really are very smart."  It was a bit too much for me. I don't like attention... but I have to admit, it was nice getting that praise. Just need to make sure it doesn't get to my head.  And... just because I'm doing well in the class doesn't mean I'll do well in the final!! I need to remember that.

Also, the 10 page paper that was due on Friday was moved to next Wednesday. Amazing stuff. It gives me time to study for my finals on Monday. My friends who said they were coming tomorrow also cancelled, so I have the whole day to myself. This frees up A LOT of time for me. ^_^  How much do you want to bet that I won't put that time to good use though.. haha..

Drank whiskey today in wine class. Geez, now I know what they mean when they say "that stuff will make you grow hair on your chest." It was smooth on the tongue, but after it passed, I really felt the kick. I doubt I can ever drink it by itself though. It felt like I was drinking liquid wood with a slight caramel finish in the end. When I think about it, on a stormy day like this... a glass of whiskey isn't too bad.

Tomorrow, I guess I'll start packing up my things and arranging my room. I have a lot of things to take home this weekend. I still have three bottles of wine in the fridge that I need to finish.. (leftovers from the group dinner). I can't really bring it home since my parents will give me strange looks. 

I sort of wish I could stop time. I don't want to move on ahead yet. Things are going really fast, and I'm usually busy with school...  I don't know, it just doesn't feel like I've had time to think about things really well.  I've been so focused with getting things done that I haven't really had time to plan out what's next.

Just a few more days...
...to say goodbye....
..to this world of mine...