Change

I guess my next challenge in life is saying goodbye to my best friend. He'll be joining the navy and he'll be gone for four to six years. This is pretty hard... I won't really have anyone to hang out with once he's gone. I have other friends, but..

It's hard to imagine what life will be like in the future.

We laughed tonight on how he won't be able to play Starcraft 2 or Diablo 3 with me anymore. "It's too bad. That would've been a lot of fun."
I can tell he still has his doubts about enlisting. It's definitely a drastic measure in response to the economic stress he's facing. He hasn't found a job in 2 years, and it's come to this. He asked me, "Do you think this is right for me?" I tried to smile. "Hopefully it'll be everything you want it to be," I said. "You'll do fine. We'll be here waiting for you after you're done."

I used to think of my friends as a stable source of support, but then I realize now that they have their own lives to live. They won't always be there.

It makes me wonder if there really is anything stable in life. Things continue to change, and all we can do is hope to keep up somehow. Obama said we needed change. I wonder if this is what he had in mind. In the midst of it all, I can't help but wonder what's going to happen to me. I can't keep living life day to day. Soon, I'll have to face the question of my own future. Not now, but soon enough...