Opening the Gates of Hell
Apr. 22nd, 2008 12:24 amAs a child, I've always been fascinated by ghosts and mysteries. Unsolved Mysteries and Sightings were my two favorite shows. A lot of my old childhood drawings involved ghosts and abandoned castles. I never thought that it was strange thing until I started thinking about it recently. I don't know how I got interested with ghosts. I think it started when I woke up in the middle of the night and I walked outside into the living room. My dad was watching a horror movie, so I peaked at the television screen. The image there really scared me.. and I couldn't sleep that night. Although I was scared to death by it... I was also strangely fascinated...
I remember in 2nd grade, my two best friends and I scared ourselves to death with tales of "Bloody Mary." The belief was that if we went into the restroom and looked in the mirror while chanting "Bloody Mary" over and over... a bloody woman would come out of the mirror and do horrible things to us. We always dared each other to do it, and we would take turns pushing the other into the restroom. Every time I used the restroom, I imagined Bloody Mary would come out and grab me. I would always run out in a frightened hurry. It was a fun time.
There was another story during 2nd grade that I heard that was called "The Gateway to Hell." It involved pulling out this weird chain that was stuck to the wall. My friend told me that if someone ever pulled out the chain, the hole beneath them would open up and swallow them into hell. I remember I spent a big part of my childhood obsessed with pulling that chain. During recess, I would tug at that chain with all my might. I didn't have a death wish or anything...I really didn't want to go to hell. I was just really curious to see what would happen. I always knew in the back of my mind that I would never be able to pull off that chain.. It was that sense of curiosity that kept me pulling everyday. I recently went back to my old school, and I noticed the chain was still there, unmoved... untouched.
I was always a curious kid I guess. I wanted to know the answer to everything. The fact that something was unsolved or unexplained appealed to me so much that I spent most of my time daydreaming about what the answers to those questions were. The mystery of the extinction of dinosaurs and far away planets also really fascinated me as well. Pretty much anything that was unexplained, I wanted to figure out. I read tons of books on those subjects, but they never gave me the answer I wanted. I wanted more. With ghosts, I wanted to actually be there.. to see the ghost.. to feel the amount of fear in the environment.. I ended up developing my own theories from the things I read.
My parents never really minded too much about my interest in ghosts. I always had a book about the paranormal in my hands and I would tell them about all the places I wanted to investigate. Growing up though, I started becoming a lot more skeptical about things. Towards the beginning of high school, my interests in ghosts began to wane and I started becoming more interested in computers and the internet.. not to mention girls. Through it all though, there was always something deep inside me that was fascinated with the unexplained.
I guess I still see myself like I was in 2nd grade. In many ways, I'm still a curious kid pulling at a heavy chain. However, I'm a lot older. What if I were able to pull out that chain now? Would the gates of hell swallow me up? Or would nothing happen.. with me just ending up with a broken chain in my hands?
Sometimes I think the fun lies in not knowing what would happen. I find that as long as there's a mystery in my life, I'll always have the motivation to keep searching for the answer. Of course it gets frustrating when you never find that answers you're looking for. Maybe one day though. Definitely one day.
I remember in 2nd grade, my two best friends and I scared ourselves to death with tales of "Bloody Mary." The belief was that if we went into the restroom and looked in the mirror while chanting "Bloody Mary" over and over... a bloody woman would come out of the mirror and do horrible things to us. We always dared each other to do it, and we would take turns pushing the other into the restroom. Every time I used the restroom, I imagined Bloody Mary would come out and grab me. I would always run out in a frightened hurry. It was a fun time.
There was another story during 2nd grade that I heard that was called "The Gateway to Hell." It involved pulling out this weird chain that was stuck to the wall. My friend told me that if someone ever pulled out the chain, the hole beneath them would open up and swallow them into hell. I remember I spent a big part of my childhood obsessed with pulling that chain. During recess, I would tug at that chain with all my might. I didn't have a death wish or anything...I really didn't want to go to hell. I was just really curious to see what would happen. I always knew in the back of my mind that I would never be able to pull off that chain.. It was that sense of curiosity that kept me pulling everyday. I recently went back to my old school, and I noticed the chain was still there, unmoved... untouched.
I was always a curious kid I guess. I wanted to know the answer to everything. The fact that something was unsolved or unexplained appealed to me so much that I spent most of my time daydreaming about what the answers to those questions were. The mystery of the extinction of dinosaurs and far away planets also really fascinated me as well. Pretty much anything that was unexplained, I wanted to figure out. I read tons of books on those subjects, but they never gave me the answer I wanted. I wanted more. With ghosts, I wanted to actually be there.. to see the ghost.. to feel the amount of fear in the environment.. I ended up developing my own theories from the things I read.
My parents never really minded too much about my interest in ghosts. I always had a book about the paranormal in my hands and I would tell them about all the places I wanted to investigate. Growing up though, I started becoming a lot more skeptical about things. Towards the beginning of high school, my interests in ghosts began to wane and I started becoming more interested in computers and the internet.. not to mention girls. Through it all though, there was always something deep inside me that was fascinated with the unexplained.
I guess I still see myself like I was in 2nd grade. In many ways, I'm still a curious kid pulling at a heavy chain. However, I'm a lot older. What if I were able to pull out that chain now? Would the gates of hell swallow me up? Or would nothing happen.. with me just ending up with a broken chain in my hands?
Sometimes I think the fun lies in not knowing what would happen. I find that as long as there's a mystery in my life, I'll always have the motivation to keep searching for the answer. Of course it gets frustrating when you never find that answers you're looking for. Maybe one day though. Definitely one day.