Beeeeeeeep...

My life feels like.. hm..

You know the flatline sound made by a heart monitor? The sound it makes when your heart stops beating and the doctors do everything they can to bring it back to normal? That continuous high pitched monotone beeeeeeeep......?

It feels like that.

When I hear the people in the crowd... "Beeeeeeep..."
When I'm eating dinner... "Beeeeeeeep...."
When I'm sitting in class taking notes... "Beeeeeeep..."

When I'm in my room.. it's even louder and stronger than before...
But after so long.. I've learned to live with it.. I've learned to deal with it...
I just need to keep going, right?
I wonder though... am I really living?

Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep..........

Maybe I've forgotten what it's like... to know how to live.

Maybe.