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Is it shyness? Or just distrust..?
I still have a hard time speaking with others, but I guess it's okay since I don't really need to speak to others most of the time. It's just that I haven't really spoken to my new roommates at all since I moved in two weeks ago. I hope I haven't given them the impression that I'm a serial killer or anything.

In any case, it's nice being a recluse. No one really bothers me. The more I watch and learn about the world, the more I feel as if I don't belong in it. I guess the question I need to answer now is "Where do I belong?" I never managed to figure that one out. Is being alone where I really belong?

I wish I could be a traveler.

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Continuity. That's an important word. I think about it now as I make my decision if I want to keep on dancing or not. Most of our "veteran" members are gone, leaving the team with a more inexperienced bunch.

Most importantly, I'm thinking about quitting because it's tiring and full of commitment. I extremely miss having nights to myself. Now that a new year is starting, I can't help but wonder how well I can keep it up. I can certainly afford the time, but I don't know if I want to give that up again. I need my rest...

Sigh, on the meeting last Tuesday, one of the rookies asked for my number just in case he needed help on practicing. I'd feel bad to let anyone down.

I have a bad habit of diappearing sometimes. What would happen if I keep going with this for once... where will it take me?