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Jun. 19th, 2016 11:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
second_flightI don't understand the loneliness I feel these days. I'm lonely but I don't really feel the need to talk to anyone or be with anyone. I'm in a semi-depressed state, coming to terms with a lot of things in life that didn't turn out the way I would have liked them to be. I'm getting by though, and the way I see it, that's good enough. I just don't understand what's eating away at me.
I'm developing habits I haven't had before. For the past two weeks, I've been drinking every night. It's not to the point of alcoholism, but I fear it might get to that point if I'm not careful. I don't even get to the point of being drunk, but it's enough to make me wonder what the heck I'm doing.
On one hand, I don't really have much to be sad about. I have a stable job and I don't have to worry about how to get my next meal. On the other hand, all the friends I made over the past few years have left. Maybe it's that I don't want to meet anyone new... I just want my old friends back.
I don't know. I can't write tonight.
I'm developing habits I haven't had before. For the past two weeks, I've been drinking every night. It's not to the point of alcoholism, but I fear it might get to that point if I'm not careful. I don't even get to the point of being drunk, but it's enough to make me wonder what the heck I'm doing.
On one hand, I don't really have much to be sad about. I have a stable job and I don't have to worry about how to get my next meal. On the other hand, all the friends I made over the past few years have left. Maybe it's that I don't want to meet anyone new... I just want my old friends back.
I don't know. I can't write tonight.
