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Rainy mornings with a scent of orange
Dec. 21st, 2011 09:44 amI think I'll clean up a little bit before I leave for my trip to Los Angeles on Saturday.
Sigh, I woke up this morning thinking about her again. It's not like I choose to do this to myself, it just happens. Why is she the first person I think about when I'm feeling lonely? Whenever I look at my cell phone, I miss her voice and her words, but I know I have to stay away. I need to detach myself completely, or else I'll end up torturing myself for trying to hold on. Funny. I never imagined myself getting over someone who I was never in a relationship with. Nothing happened between us...yet why do I feel so bad..? It just goes to show that I'm a stupid guy.
I need to occupy myself with things until she's out of my mind.
Right, so today, I will clean up the house, get my baggage prepared, make lunch, and maybe watch a bit of TV.
I ate an orange last night and left the peelings on a napkin on my desk, so I woke up this morning to a nice citrus aroma. Seems like a strange juxtaposition to my sad thoughts this rainy Wednesday morning.
Sigh, I woke up this morning thinking about her again. It's not like I choose to do this to myself, it just happens. Why is she the first person I think about when I'm feeling lonely? Whenever I look at my cell phone, I miss her voice and her words, but I know I have to stay away. I need to detach myself completely, or else I'll end up torturing myself for trying to hold on. Funny. I never imagined myself getting over someone who I was never in a relationship with. Nothing happened between us...yet why do I feel so bad..? It just goes to show that I'm a stupid guy.
I need to occupy myself with things until she's out of my mind.
Right, so today, I will clean up the house, get my baggage prepared, make lunch, and maybe watch a bit of TV.
I ate an orange last night and left the peelings on a napkin on my desk, so I woke up this morning to a nice citrus aroma. Seems like a strange juxtaposition to my sad thoughts this rainy Wednesday morning.
