ゆっくり

Ah, it's already December? November was a heavy month, full of angst and emotional turmoil that would rival those of a high school student. The several weeks that I was sick got me to thinking about things, and I fell into a deep brooding mood. December's looking to be a much lighter month in those terms though. I made a promise to myself that I'd start enjoying life and experience to a better extent, like the way I used to. As they say, ゆっくりしていってね!  To be able to do that though, I need to open myself up just a little bit. I'm trying to do it gradually, and with luck, maybe this journal will start to reflect that change.

I attended that wedding today, and I actually had a good time. It was an traditional Indian wedding, and it was my first time experiencing something like that. It was a grand experience which I'll remember. I loved that people actually left me alone and didn't try to deeply socialize with me. Nobody tried asking me the same stupid silly questions like I always get... "So, what do you do? What did you study? What are your plans for achieving something in the future?"  The questions and comments were kept to the moment of it all. "The food is amazing! The bride looks beautiful! Mom, I wanna go home~!" I love events where I don't have to think about anything else. I just want to enjoy the moment as it is.

I know that taking things easy and just enjoying myself is a simple way of dealing with the complexities of life. But heck, I need to do this. It may not solve my problems, but it'll help remind me of the things that I love. Hopefully, this will also lead me to the direction in which I want to move towards.