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Dec. 7th, 2010 06:40 pmI just finished watching the anime, "Monster," and I'm sad to see it end. It's a great psychological thriller/detective drama, and I really got into it these past few weeks. I'm incredibly impressed by it all, and I'm not sure what I should get into now to fill my need for something deep and intricate.
On another note, I think I've finally come to realize that the path I've been walking in my life wasn't where I needed to go. Plans fell apart, I got discouraged, and I struggled against the fate that was handed down to me. Little by little though, I think I'm beginning to understand what I need to do. It's crazy how long it's taken me to come to these realizations, but I think it was always in my nature to fight against this knowledge. It's easy for me to take the intial step, but somewhere along the way, I falter in my resolve, and I give up. There's just not enough force that propels me towards the end.
I just need to go.. where I'm needed. I suppose that might be enough to carry me all the way through for once. I think at that point, I wouldn't need to find reasons for myself. I would be doing things, not because I'm supposed to or that I want to. It would be because I -need- to, and at that point, I might be able to understand the basis of my own identity.
On another note, I think I've finally come to realize that the path I've been walking in my life wasn't where I needed to go. Plans fell apart, I got discouraged, and I struggled against the fate that was handed down to me. Little by little though, I think I'm beginning to understand what I need to do. It's crazy how long it's taken me to come to these realizations, but I think it was always in my nature to fight against this knowledge. It's easy for me to take the intial step, but somewhere along the way, I falter in my resolve, and I give up. There's just not enough force that propels me towards the end.
I just need to go.. where I'm needed. I suppose that might be enough to carry me all the way through for once. I think at that point, I wouldn't need to find reasons for myself. I would be doing things, not because I'm supposed to or that I want to. It would be because I -need- to, and at that point, I might be able to understand the basis of my own identity.
