Rampant thoughts

There are many thoughts in my head that I wish I could eloquently communicate through words, but this is fairly hard for me sometimes. My thoughts are always jumping from one point to another, that once I'm able to put them into words, they don't matter anymore. These are thoughts I think are worth writing, but they don't seem quite as important as the feelings of the present moment. Maybe this is true because of my personality. I regard the feelings of the moment with more regard because it seems more concrete than fading, ambiguous, abstract thoughts. In other words, dealing with feelings is easier than handling thoughts.

This affects many various things in my life, such as communication, writing in this journal, or how I deal with people. I'd love to approach things more from a rational, calculating perspective. At that level, I think and feel I can see things with more clarity. However, it's not the way I naturally operate, and that functioning only happens randomly and every so often. It's a nice thing to have, and I'd like to be able to harness it to use it whenever I need to, instead of my usual reliance on the world of feelings. Clarity of mind is something I'm chasing after, and only by harnessing both my feelings and thoughts will I be able to catch it.

But I may be getting in way over my head. This isn't something I'll be actively pursuing, but it would be something that's nice to have.

Even now, it feels the moment has passed, and I want to move onto the next thought. The thoughts in me aren't grounded.