Beyond the wreckage of 2009...

There are a lot of things I don't write down in my LJ. I don't think I need to record every single detail in my life, but it does bother me when something important happens and I write about something else instead. This journal is mostly reserved for thoughts and feelings rather than daily events, but I've been trying to be more balanced. I really don't have too much to say about the things that happen in my life though. Today, I went to my cousin's house to fix her computer. I spent most of the day eating since my aunt kept feeding me things. Oof... I'm still feeling really full now. I also bumped into my second grade teacher earlier this morning! I felt a little bit like my childish, shy self when I talked her again. What a blast from the past.

It's the new year in just a few hours here in Los Angeles. It feels like the past year of 2009 marks the ending of a part of my life. Everything went downhill, starting with the death of my grandfather. I lost all the things I considered important in my life. I know others have probably experienced worse things... but to me, this year has been a very bad year. And now I'm sitting here in the aftermath of it all, on the verge of 2010. I survived.. and I can't help but wonder what will happen next. The future feels strangely empty, and it seems like the best part of my life is already over......but it's too early to know for sure, right?

I want to see what 2010 brings.... all the good things, the bad things, and everything in between.
I know I'll be okay.

And with that, I wish everyone a Happy New Year. I really do.  ^_^