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At the moment, my life is pretty much in a state of suspended animation. It's a waiting game for now. My family is still deciding whether it's a good idea to move away from our house. We can either get a loan and try to save our home, or we can find another cheaper place to live. In about 3 months time, we have to make a decision.

I've lived in this house for my whole life, so it's weird to think of losing it.
2009 is a very hard year for me. It's only been 7 months into it and it feels like my whole life has turned topsy-turvy. If anything, it's taught me how easily things can be lost. I've tried to stay strong through everything, but now I'm starting to feel a little weary.

I know that whatever happens, my family and I will get through it.
But I still can't help feeling a little sad about how things are turning out. This has been on my mind constantly.

I need to learn to accept the things that are out of my control..
And I need to focus on the things that I can do.
At least... for now. I'll just do what I can.