A State of Melancholy

Some of my distant memories seem to haunt me a lot now that I'm not in school anymore. They're memories of things long gone... those perfect times that I wish could have lasted forever. It hurts to think back to those times, because it never fails to instill in me a sense of melancholy.

It's hard not to think about things like that. I guess to me, the future still seems rather bleak. It's easier to think about happier times.... but in doing so, it just makes me realize how much I've lost.

Being idle does this to me. My mind wanders if it doesn't have anything to focus on. I need to establish something stable in my life again. If I can focus on something, I won't end up so scattered.