"The End"... is just another way of saying "The Beginning"

Things are almost done now. After an anxiety filled day of finals yesterday, I made it. I did the best I could, and I feel good about my exams. Even if I don't get all A's this quarter, I'm fine, because I know I tried my best. And I'm proud of myself for that.

 I have one more exam tomorrow morning, but I'm not too scared about it anymore. What's left for me to do right now is pack up the rest of my room, and say my final respects to my life here at college.

Saying goodbye is surprisingly really hard... not to anyone in particular, but to the atmosphere here. I'm going to miss this life, with it's unlimited quality of alone time just for me. I can't take walks anymore in the middle of the night, nor can I go back to visit Snow Creek like I used to. I won't be able to meet people as easily as I did here either. I met a lot of good people, and I'm glad about that. Maybe I can, once again in the future, in some other place.. but not here anymore. This is the end.

These last two years have been the best time of my life in college, mainly because of the things I learned about myself. It was peaceful, quiet, routine, with lots of time for reflection. I was also able to fight against loneliness, and I finally.. FINALLY won. These last few months were also probably my hardest times as well. I lost some of the most important things in my life that I can never replace. Too many changes have been happening, and I feel like it's really easy to just let myself get swept away...


Now I have to move on to a new page in my life. I'm scared because I don't know what expect. I don't have any plans or schedules to keep. I don't have any goals, and I don't know what to do... but if I learned anything these past two years, I've learned that I have to ability to succeed, as long as I just have the courage to start.

But for now, I don't want to worry about that. I just want to enjoy this night here alone, in my room, for the last time.