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My life has been one continuous search for meaning... and I've never come close to finding what I've been searching for. Sometimes everything can seem so nihilistic.. like there's really no point to anything. Then at other times, I look at the sky, feel the wind, and realize how wonderful it is to be in that moment.

What do you think the point of my life was up to now? All those past experiences I had... my relationships, my dreams... Will they add up to my future? I haven't figured out much, have I? Why is it that I don't know what I want?

Why don't I know?

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Oh no.. what am I doing? I just joined the open beta for Mabinogi...
http://mabinogi.nexon.net/