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Cynical Me
I find it a little funny to see that youtube has a "Relationship Status" under user info... but not too surprised at the same time. I guess I've grown a little cynical with relationships. I think I've lost the sense of what love is. People are getting together easily and breaking up as fast. Marriage is a joke now.. divorce rates are high and no one really cares about commitment.

Maybe I'm just cynical... Am I being unfair here?

I also wonder if I'm unfair on my thoughts on other things as well.. I've been like that lately... like I refuse to see the good side to things because I already think that there is no good side. Being cynical does that to you. You assume the worst in people and things... and you can't change those things no matter what you do.

Even if I'm cynical, I still force myself to smile to people. It would probably be funny going around and scowling at everyone.. but that's just not who I am. I keep telling myself that people deserve the benefit of the doubt... Deep down inside, I'm struggling between these two forces inside myself.. kinda like Star Wars and the battle of light vs. dark.

I hate showing my cynical side to people. It makes me feel like a horrible person.